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Update on the Testimony of Richard D. Dover

Update Summer 2002
Update October 2002
Update August 2003
Update February 2004
Update May 2004
Update October 2004
Update July 2005
Update September 2005
Update November 2007
Update February 2009
Update November 2011

 15 Warning Signs of an Abusive Relationship
Sermon on Anger

I originally wrote my testimony in 1998. This update is for 2001. It is great to hear what God has done in the past, but what is He doing now? He is a living and active God. If we are a committed Christian, then there should be continual positive changes in our life, and we should be having ongoing victory in the areas He has delivered us out of. And any victory we have is by His grace alone.

I still have a friendship with my ex-wives Pat and Karla. We are able to do things together and live beyond the past hurts. We are even able to talk about some of the damage of the past. When I am of need of spiritual advice, I know I can go to Pat or Karla. I respect their counsel.
I am very aware that I could be an abuser all over again-but I make a conscious choice to not walk down that path.  I have learned to not "act out" my anger, but to ask the Lord how to work through the anger. And yes, sometimes I get upset and want to be controlling-I have not "arrived".

My son, Joshua, (he is 19) has been living me with me for the last 2-1/2 years. I wish I could say that I have never been verbally abusive with him in the last two years, but I have gotten very angry a few times. And he has his own anger issues. But praise God, both of us have grown more mature in the last two years. If I was not walking in victory, he would not be living with me. I have seen my son grow leaps and bounds spiritually. I do not believe that this would be happening if his father was not changing.  Because Joshua has chosen to stay with the Lord and not blame Him for the abusive home he lived in, Joshua is making many right choices for his life. More than anything else, he is open to correction and guidance. Praise God! A 19 year old young man that will listen and even apply the advice of His father. A 19 year old young man that listens to the advice of other adults in his life and who has earned respect with other adults. This is a miracle from God Himself. And I believe this has happened not because I was a great father (I wasn't), but because I allowed God to change my life and show that Jesus Christ is worth trusting in.
I pray that Joshua will get the help he needs so that he does not repeat the sins of his father.

Many people who know me say that I am a very good, moral person. They are impressed by my commitment to Christ, my desire to share the Gospel of Jesus Christ, my willingness to  help others grow spiritually, and the openness and vulernablity that I live by. To a large extent they are correct in regards to my actions. But like any other human being, there is an inner war that goes on within me.

In the last year the Lord has been taking me through a fiery furnace experience. The Holy Spirit has been revealing the deeper things in me. He has been showing me more of what is behind the anger and control that is in my life. He is desiring to bring more inner healing to me. He wants to work on the root issues, not just deal with the symptoms. He has been revealing the sins and flaws of pride, false humility, perfectionism, performance oriented living, low self esteem, lust, judgmental, too busy, fear of intimacy, and much more. He has shown me the measuring stick of my life is not others, but His Word. I have known about these issues in my life for several years. But now the Father is saying, "They must go! They are preventing you from being the man of God I called you to be. I can not use you to the fullest extent until you experience deliverance. I have a great work for you, but I need a broken vessel, not a wounded vessel."  I need to say that again-"I have a great work for you, but I need a broken vessel, not a wounded vessel." I am sure that statement is for somebody else besides me.

I believe the next step in my ongoing healing is to work through the fear of intimacy. Jesus wants to be my best friend. He wants more of my time. The more time we spend together, the closer we will become. That leads to intimacy. Which means I need to be able to trust Him. In my head I know He is trustworthy, but I struggle with trust. Needless to say the Father has more work to do in my life.

Update 2002
My son Joshua, for a time, did not want anything to do with God. He became discouraged because of some events with the break up from a girlfriend and church issues. He chose to move out of the house and live on his own. He started to hang out with not the best of people. He then experienced the death of his grandmother and is now coming back to God again. He is starting to get plugged into a church and be used in the gifts that the Lord has given him.

I have moved to, and have started a ministry in the Capitol Hill, Seattle area. More and more I am learning to walk in humbleness. I still struggle with perfectionism, but by the grace of God, I am learning to not be performance oriented. On an ongoing basis, Jesus shows me He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life.

Pat and I do not have much contact, but when we do it is good. Because of the change the Lord has done in my life, I have been able to encourage to get help for her Eating Disorder. She has received some great counseling in this area of her life.

Karla has moved to the Seattle area. Karla and I were having some great time together for awhile, but it seems that whenever we get closer, the scars from the past come up in both of us. I wish it could be different, but it isn't. We both know that we would be there if the other needed us, but we are not able to have a very close relationship. I think our biggest problem is that when things happen, we interpret them by past experiences.


Update October 2002

Karla has gotten married. The Lord has put it in my heart to pray for their marriage and that the Lord continue to heal Karla of any wounds I have caused her. I also pray that the Lord heal Karla of any wounds in her life before our marriage. Throughout the years I have wondered if I truly love Karla. There now is no doubt in my mind. I have the love of God within me for her. It is an unselfish love. In the natural realm there is nothing for me to gain by loving her, but I still have this tremendous love for her./p>

My son is hanging out with better friends than he has in the past, but he is not very consistent in his church attendance.

The Lord is continuing working on me in the change of my character. He is dealing with me in regards to my sarcasm. He is calling to be a more sensitive and gentle person. He is putting a heart of mercy within me.

The Lord has also called me to spend more time in intercessory prayer for others. Here is a Daily Intercessor Prayer Guideline that I use.  It is very powerful and help you focus on being specific in your prayers. I need to be much more faithful in using it each day.

Once a month I preach at a county jail and we minister a couple times a week in Capitol Hill. I also do some phone and e-mail counseling.

15 Warning Signs of an Abusive Relationship
Sermon on Anger


Update August 2003

We have been busy with the ministry The Hill for Jesus. We care tremendously for the people we minister to on a regular basis. It can be very discouraging, but we are reminded that our success in ministry is based upon being obedient to the call of God, not how many people change, get saved, etc. However, at the same time our goal should be to see the miraculous work of God in people's lives.

Karla and her husband have moved back to Alaska. I have minimal contact with them (this is the way it should be). As time has gone by and I have dealt with my own flaws I have come to realize that at times I have taken on too much ownership of the failures of my marriages. My sin played a big role, but the women had their problems and I see the evidence of that in their lives currently. I pray they will become all they can be for Jesus.

My son Joshua and I have been having some good times together this summer. Overall he is a good young man, but he still needs to make a strong commitment to the Lord. He is going to church on a more regular basis. For awhile he lived in a college district which is not good, but he is getting an apartment with a friend from church. In my heart I would love it if Joshua and I could minister together sometime. But not my will, only God's for my son.

I am still struggling with having deep intimacy with the Lord. Many who know me would say I am a very godly man who loves the Lord tremendously. But my measuring stick is not what people think. I want the anointing of God in my life. I don't want to just walk in His gifting, I want to walk in His anointing. That requires communion. Throughout the day I think on the will of God, desire to do His will, and by His strength do His will (and fall short at times). However, He is asking me to go deeper. He is wanting much more personal time with me. I am not sure if I am making sense to anyone reading this. I think it will for those who are feeling the same tugging.


Update February 2004

We are starting to see individuals living on Capitol Hill make some right choices in their life. We have seen some drug dealers stop selling drugs, a few addicts stop using drugs,  and more individuals going to church. We sense that very soon there is going to be an outpouring of God's Holy Spirit and there will be many who repent of their sin and will make choices to serve Jesus with all their heart.

My son is still not totally sold out to Jesus yet. But at least he is not involved in alcohol, drugs, illicit sex, greed, or riotous living. Overall he is doing much better than I did his age.

Over and over again it seems that the closer I get to Jesus the more I see the holiness of God. More and more I realize that I am nothing without Him. Over the years I have struggled with pride and fearful of walking in it. I have realized that pride will fall away automatically if we get close to Jesus.

Since living on Capitol Hill, the devil has tempted me more than ever with sinful behavior. Much more than when I was a non-Christian. He would love to cause me to stumble and fall into various sin and destroy The Hill for Jesus ministry. However, I am aware of his tactics and realize he is out to steal, kill, and destroy. By the grace of God we are walking in victory.

There are times I am aware that I have the victory over anger only because of the grace of God. I have an individual I work with that 'pushes many buttons in me". I don't always deal with him in a proper manner, but much better than I would before. At times I see him as the "thorn in my flesh". A good thorn to have.


Update May 2004

I am getting married. The Lord has chosen for me to be married again.  I am experiencing the  promise of Joel 2:25. "Then I will make up to you for the years,  That the swarming locust has eaten, he creeping locust, the stripping locust, and the gnawing locust,..."

I had no idea that I would ever be married again. I will share more later, but here is the Wedding Information.


Update October 2004

If you have not gone to our Wedding Site I would encourage you to do so. Read about how me and Carmi met and learn about her own story. I still cannot believe how God has blessed me with a wonderful wife. And for all of you who are wondering, no there has not been any verbal, emotional, or verbal abuse in our marriage. I am truly a different person. Overall we have a very romantic and loving relationship. We love being with each other. It truly was God's will for us to be together even though both of us believed that I probably should not be married. God works in some interesting ways.

There has been one area that has been a tremendous struggle for me. Carmi is from a culture where you do not share your feelings and when you are angry you do not express your anger. She will clam up tight when she is hurt or upset. This is very hard for me because I strongly believe in communication in a marriage. At times I have tried everything to get her and help her to open up. Only recently have I seen her break the cycle of silence when she is upset or hurt. This situation has pushed my patience to the maximum. It has been very frustrating. But I have had a choice-to walk in the ways I have in the past or to walk differently. I have chosen to walk differently. I actually embrace this problem that has been in our marriage. It has caused me to trust in God alone. It has shown me that I am a different man. There is so much more I could write on this. When I have more time I will share how God has been in the midst of all this in building character in both Carmi and I. All I can say is that in spite of the hard times, we love each other tremendously and more each day. What a difference from my past experiences.

Joshua, my son, is living with his mother's father and his mother while he works full-time and is going to school part-time. He still is not sold out for Jesus and is not attending church, but he is staying out of trouble.


Update July 2005

I am so far behind in doing updates, maintaining this website, etc. Our The Hill for Jesus ministry and our involvement with Victory Life Center, has consumed much of our time.

Carmi and I have been married for over a year. We truly are in love with each other. We love being in each others presence (I work from home, so we are together all the time. In the past that would have created much turmoil). We have so much fun. There is a lot of laughter and joy in our relationship. At the same time we have had some hard moments. Needless to say our personalities clash at times. In the year of our marriage we have had some times when it has been very challenging. But it is obvious to both of us that these are times where God is using them to build character in us and to fine tune us.

There are many times that I could go back into my old patterns. It takes much self talk and prayer at times to not fall back into the old lifestyle. Because of all that I have gone through in the past, I have been able to help Carmi to go through the struggles she has with some of her issues. I have been able to be the strong one through the hard times. In the past my depression would have overtaken me, but I refuse to ever walk down that road again. I certainly have gotten unjustifiably angry.

Through our cell group, God has used us to really touch some lives. Because of the people we work with and the issues they have, Carmi has made many sacrifices for ministry. She truly is a godly woman. I know it has been very hard for her at times.

I would say that our first year of marriage has probably been more challenging than maybe other marriages, but we have worked through issues that other marriages take years to work through. I believe it will only get better for us.


Update September 2005

Still busy as can be but want to give a very quick update. Carmi and I have had a challenging few dayss. We just completed a special event and it is very obvious that the enemy was trying to sabotage it and our marriage. At the same time God is using all this to bring transformation, growth, and character in both of us. Regarding transformation, Carmi is going through a major overhaul of her life in some areas. And of course, the Lord uses this as time to work on me also.

There was one day that I fell back into my old patterns. I screamed and yelled and was very ungodly in my behavior. I felt I was losing control of a situation and I blew it big time. Afterwards it scared me and it was a vivid reminder of my victory is only in Jesus. It also was a reminder that I can still be a big jerk at times. As time allows I will write much more on all this.


Update November 2007

It has been a very long time since I have given an update. Carmi and I have been married for about 3-1/2 years. We certainly have had some challenging times, but overall our marriage has been good. There will always be some challenges because of our personalities being so different. But these differences bring great balance. The challenges in our marriage have been much harder for Carmi than me. But at the same time she would be the first to say that because of the challenges she has broken through some bondages in her life. And through the challenges I am always reminded that I can never trust in my own strength.

We are no longer doing The Hill for Jesus ministry. VLC has moved to Kent, WA and through some tough soul searching and seeking God, we decided that we must focus on the Kent area regarding ministry. I am the Outreach Pastor for the church along with many other duties. Both Carmi and I have active cell groups (bible study groups).

Joshua is in the Marines. He has been to Iraq and back. The military has been very good for him-it has brought a level of maturity in his life. I am very proud of him. He is starting to get closer to the Lord and have a desire for the things of God.


Update February 2009

Well, it again has been a long time since our last update. Carmi and I are going on 5 years of marriage. We are grower more and more closer over time.

In October 2008 we did a short missions trip to Uganda, Africa. We are very involved in ministry and I have many responsibilities at VLC.

Joshua is in Iraq finishing up his 2nd tour of duty in Iraq. He is now a Corporal.

Listed below is links to sites that have pictures and more info on us. I don't do much with this web site anymore.

www.thedoverfamily.com
http://administrator.christianblogsites.com/blog
We also are on Facebook. Just do a search for Richard D'Andrea Dover and Carmi Lazar Dover.


Update November 2011

Well it has been almost two years since our last update. Carmi and I have been married for 7-1/2 years. We, like any other couple have our moments, but we are doing good overall. The ministries we are involved in can be hard on a marriage but we refuse to let the challenges of ministry ruin or marriage. Since our marriage I have had around 3 events where I was the 'crazy man' like I was for years and years. I can say with absolute confidence that I am a totally different person than who I was in the past-only because of Jesus Christ and His grace. This is not to say that I do not fall short-I do many times. I can fall into anger, frustration, impatient, etc. The difference now is when I am going down that road, I am aware, and renew my mind.

For the last two years I have been the Program Director of Fairhaven House. I am now the president of Fairhaven House. Fairhaven House is a non-profit, low-income, clean & sober housing program. We provide housing for men who are in recovery. I am also the Founder and Progam Director of There is Hope Radio. There is Hope is a live talk show that discusses addiction and recovery. About 5 months ago Carmi and I left Victory Life Center and I became the Outreach Pastor of Seattle Open Door Church. I am also the pastor of Community of Hope, a recovery oriented church service. So needless to say we have our hands full when it comes to ministry.

My son Joshua just completed 5 years in the Marines and is now going to college for Computer Programming.


Philippians 3:12-14
"Not that I have already obtained it, or have already become perfect, but I press on in order that I may lay hold of that for which also I was laid hold of by Christ Jesus. [13] Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, [14] I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus."



Philip. 1:6
"For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus. "
Praise God! More and more I am trusting Jesus more to be my best friend. The Lord has been showing me that He is faithful.

In the midst of all my struggles, trials, tribulations, challenges, and questionings I know that the Father is on my side. Father Does Know What's Best. And I await the day when I shed off this old flesh, receive a glorified body and spend eternity with my Creator. Until then, I will serve Him by faith and grow in Jesus. The reality is that until we receive our glorified body, we will struggle and war with our flesh. Our spirit is regenerated, but our flesh is still flesh. He is my hope.
Acts 17:28
"For in Him we live and move and have our being..."

If you don't know Christ, humbly turn your life over Him. If you have accepted Christ and He is your savior, allow Him to be Lord of Lords in your life. Get help! Wherever God leads you. It may be through counseling, medication, going to a Spirit-filled church, deliverance from demon possession, and maybe all of the above. Do whatever it takes! It is worth it!

Philippians 2:13
"for it is God who is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure."

Praise God, He began a good work in me and He will complete it. He gives me the desire to live and serve Him for His good pleasure. I can let go of the past and press on toward His calling for me.

Some of you reading this may say you don't need Christ. You have lived a moral, good upright life and have lived by the Golden Rule. According to the Bible, if we have sinned only once, we have 'missed the mark'-sinned. No one is 'good enough'.

Romans 3:10
"As it is written, there is none righteous, no, not one."

Romans 3:23
"For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God."

Romans 6:23
"For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord."

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